I always think that being a single woman is worthless. Like no one is capable of loving you or worst, accepting you. But being single for over a year made me realized things. Everything changes when you start to love, accept and show respect to yourself. Everything becomes wonderful. Every situation, either bad or good becomes a blessing.
After some months of being single, I thought that maybe, there is something wrong with me that keep the boys away. Maybe I am not good enough. Maybe I am not really lovable. Or I am not pretty enough for boys to appreciate me. Maybe, those were the reasons why I still don’t have a boyfriend.
But looking back, I could say that there is no problem with me. I am kind, funny, easy to talk to, friendly, lovable and beautiful. Yes, I am beautiful. Inside and out. I’ve got people around me who are true to me and definitely I can call my friends. So, why am I worrying about not having a boyfriend? Right?
God blessed me with good people who truly love me. They can sometimes be bullies, but I know that they are really my friends. We fight, but in the end, we can settle things out. More than that, God blessed me with a family that I can always turn to when no one else is there to comfort me. So, why do I need a boyfriend?
As I contemplate on what’s happening in my life, I know deep inside that God is trying to show me something. He wants me to realize things. One of these things is that, I can live without a lover for my mid-twenty years. I think He wants me to enjoy myself. Or He wants to see me accepting my whole being. Just as how He created me. He wants me to love me. Aside from that, I think He wants me to give love to those who really deserves it – my family and friends. And most of all, He is waiting for me to become ready. Ready to accept and to be accepted, ready to love and to be loved, ready to hurt and to get hurt.
I am not bitter, because I became better. I am open for a new relationship, as long as it will lead me to the right path. I made mistakes, and I am thankful that God gave me another chance to make my life worth living for.
So if you feel sad because it seems that you’re alone or you have nobody to call your own, think again. Look around you. Because God made sure that even if you’re surrounded with only few people, those were the ones whom you needed the most. Those are the people who can love you unconditionally.
Don’t be afraid of being single. Accept it. Be brave. Be happy with yourself. Be content of who you are. The right person will come all in God’s perfect time.